and today.

the morning after.
you know the morning after you have had a melt down the night before, and your body just seems heavy, and your nose stuffy [maybe thats just cause my cold hasn't left me...]. you feel at peace and wonder how all that could have taken advantage of your emotions like that. that's how i feel at least. but at the same time could break right back down. at any moment. being weak is a blessing. being broken, a learning experience. complete dependance on the only One who can be depended on. that's where i'm at.

it's nice to have someone praying.

it's nice to have Christ interceding, at the right hand of the Father.

it's nice to be hungry, so, i'll eat.

it's nice to say good-bye.

bleh...

i feel like i'm drowning in mucus. literally. i can't lay down, or i'll die from being unable to breathe. and my EARS have been clogged all day long. my chest is stiff and sore and fills rather full. so, it's simple a matter of time. oh well.

i'm on my new bunk bed. heat certainly rises. i don't know how this is going to work for the rest of the summer...it was real hot next to [which door is that one beth??] but up here it's multiplied.

lt was fantastic. i know people were praying. i only had 2 migraines!! praise Jesus!! and some lives are syarting a turn around, and continued growth is my prayer. i'm praying about leading a small group.

that's it.
i may sound unhappy. but i'm not.

what am i supposed to say?

really, i have a lack of words. my God is so big. so great. so faithful. i've been so encouraged in my discouragment. i told Him, "God, save me, or I'll be like those who go into the pit," and He has. He does. every day.

i'm really learning that i'm never going to get -through- this. it's a day by day, it's life. and every day, my Lord will be with me, every step of the way. and He speaks, through people, through situation, SO INTIMATELY through His Word.

there is nothing like the Holy Word of God. His scriptures are the bread of life. it's reality.

that's it.