glorify Your Name through me.

for the past month i've been home. a little over a month actually. the entire time, i've struggled continuously with pride, selfishness, and brokenness. while brokenness may be the best response to pride and selfishness, it seems to have taken some serious time for true conviction. i've continually gone to the Lord in confession and prayer. really, continuously. but for some reason, i allowed my heart to grow hard. my selfishness grew as i became almost bitter toward the Lord for not "fixing" me.

sunday brought conviction.

Jesus died on the cross. who did it glorify? God. CHRIST'S obedience brought His FATHER glory. i'm called to obedience, not for my own glory [which i've certainly had expectations of] but for the glory of my Father in Heaven. Christ was given the name Jesus, by the Father, because of His spectacular obedience. the Name above all names.

what is it that i am called to? what does "spectacular obedience" look like for me?

philippians 2:3-11. do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, Who, though He was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but made Himself nothing, taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. and being found in human form, He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. therefore God has highly exalted Him and bestowed on Him the name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

spectacular obedience means counting others more significant than myself. to the glory of the Father, not myself.

my prayers have been repetitive. but i'm realizing they will remain the same for life. i will always be needy. i will always be weak. i will always need the strength of God the Father for every action, thought, and word. i can't obey except for because of what has been done for me on the cross.

this song touched me. brought my heart out in words.

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o great God - sovereign grace music

o great God of highest heaven
occupy my lowly heart
own it all and reign supreme
conquer every rebel power
let no vice or sin remain
that resists Your holy war
You have loved and purchased me
make me Yours forevermore

i was blinded by my sin
had no ears to hear Your voice
did not know Your love within
had no taste for heaven’s joys
then Your Spirit gave me life
opened up Your Word to me
through the gospel of Your Son
gave me endless hope and peace

help me now to live a life
that’s dependent on Your grace
keep my heart and guard my soul
from the evils that I face
You are worthy to be praised
with my every thought and deed
o great God of highest heaven
glorify Your Name through me

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my plea.
help me now to live a life that’s dependent on Your grace.
help me now to realize my life IS dependent on Your grace. has been, and forever will be.
glorify Your Name through me.