faith.

In the past couple of weeks it’s been hard for me to stay in the Word and I’ve seen a dramatic change in who I am. I’m facing tremendous struggle right now, but our Father is so faithful. The moment I choose to open my Bible, and literally open my eyes to truth, the Lord has brought renewal and refreshment beyond what I could have imagined. There is a lot going on right now in my life, and emotionally I’m struggling to handle it. While I know in my heart and my head of the Lord’s strength, and His perfect plan for me, Satan is still trying to grab a hold of me. I was real encouraged a few minutes ago by Psalm 103:1-5, and I just really wanted to share it with each of you. You’re in my prayers, and I pray that you’re choosing to be refreshed by the Lord’s truth through His Word daily, for it is sustenance. His Word is the bread of life, and it’s truly the only thing to “eat” and be filled.


Psalm 103:1-5 . . . Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise His holy name. Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits- who forgive all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.


It’s my inmost being that’s facing struggle; it’s my inmost being that needs renewal from the inside out, that needs to cry out to Jesus and praise His name. Psalm 103 encouraged me, PRAISE THE LORD, O MY SOUL; ALL MY INMOST BEING, PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME. That’s my prayer. I forget that I’m forgiven; I forget that He will heal me, and I forget the times before when He has redeemed my life from the pit. I’m in a pit right now, but He is crowning me with love and compassion. He is renewing me like the eagle.


Those who hope [or wait, depending on translation] in the Lord will renew their strength, the will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not be faint. –Isaiah 40:31


I hope you’re feeling renewed today!

what happens?

once you're no longer you.
once upon a time. no vulnerability, and no honesty. you convince me to convince you. it'll never been known. there is a feeling of terror like never before. being in limbo is like hanging without a broken neck. you see what's coming, and you can do nothing but wait.
"this is where i say i've had enough, no one should ever feel the way that i feel now. a walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises, and i don't believe that i'm getting any better. any better" -dashboard, oh emo.
it'll never be known.
that's dismay. it's discouragement. its without courage. without faith. it's me, so little, and full of unbelief.
your pride wont help. your sympathy, even worse. i don't want you to care. i need prevention. she says intervention.
this isn't where i'll be much longer. that's the vow. there goes now.


Jesus meets me where i'm at.

.my life

.sdrawkcab

.it's all over the place
.way up
.way down
.mostly i'm just learning
.breaking
.relying
.its beautiful
.He's beautiful

.i don't really know what to say
.i'm changing
.but i'm nothing

?is that my life